Everything is Normal

That is such a hard thing to hear when you don't feel well.

According to all my blood tests I'm pretty healthy at this point. I do have a slightly fatty liver that I am trying to take care of by eating well and doing things to take it easy on my liver.
I still had a high d- dimer...2 now....but no blood clots so no idea why I have those. Maybe I just run high.

I'm healthy, I really am. 

I still strongly believe everything is hormonal. I believe I'm starting the perimenopause stage of life. I meet with the doctor this week to discuss my blood tests for my hormones and everything and HOPEFULLY get a plan of action so I can once again feel normal.

I feel off the gluten free wagon. I'm trying to get back on. I don't think my stomach really enjoyed being back on the gluten for those couple of weeks. But these days I honestly don't know if it is bothered or not. It could just be a hormone fluctuation at the time that throws me off. 

I'm so exhausted. I'm mentally, emotionally and spiritually exhausted. I'm so close to giving up on God, giving up on hope.....I don't want to and a part of me hasn't...but it's there.

I will feel better one day. I will.

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